梦碎情诗

1979年，诗遍全国的一年，有一个机会，表哥带我到宝鸡的诗人【渭水】家里，走在一个老小区的小楼，竟有去天堂的感受！我坐在那个狭小的二楼小家，竟然是那么凌乱的的，普通的，一个工人的家庭！他的诗在陕西已经是顶呱呱了！我被诗捏去魂了，不知自己生活的贫困，不知自己家庭的破碎，甚至不知自己的前途渺茫！

I

1979,

whe

poet

y

sp

ead

all

ove

the

cou

t

y,

the

e

was

a

oppo

tu

ity.

My

cousi

took

me

to

the

home

of

Wei

Shui,

a

poet

i

Baoji,

a

d

walked

i

a

**all

buildi

g

i

a

old

commu

ity,

a

d

I

felt

like

goi

g

to

heave

!

I

sat

i

that

**all

house

o

the

seco

d

floo

,

which

was

so

messy,

o

di

a

y

a

d

a

wo

ke

's

family!

His

poems

a

e

al

eady

the

best

i

Shaa

xi!

I'm

lost

by

poet

y.

I

do

't

k

ow

the

pove

ty

of

my

life,

the

b

oke

of

my

family,

o

eve

the

u

ce

tai

futu

e

of

myself!

回到文化站，一头扎进诗的海洋，一游，三年，挣得三元钱，三年以后，投笔从考！

我的第一首诗，【梦】

如梦境一般

清晨到河边

红色的河岸圆形的石泉我舀起满是驴粪的泉水

我喝一半，驴喝一半。

如梦境一般

正午的烙饼

我是用黄土高原的枯树烧的金黄的黄米做的

我吃一半，老鼠一半

如梦境一般

夜晚的冰炕

满是梦想的诗歌满是英语的疯狂满是日记的悲伤

我睡一半，书睡一半

如梦境一般

梦里的高考

有延安大学的窑洞有美院白色的石膏像

失败即地狱，成功是天堂。

Go

back

to

the

cultu

al

statio

,

plu

ge

i

to

the

sea

of

poet

y,

visit

fo

th

ee

yea

s,

a

d

ea

th

ee

yua

.

Afte

th

ee

yea

s,

you

will

take

the

exam!

My

fi

st

poem,

"D

eam"

Like

a

d

eam

Go

to

the

ive

i

the

mo

i

g

Red

ive

ba

k,

ou

d

sto

e

sp

i

g,

I

scooped

up

the

sp

i

g

full

of

do

key

du

g

I

d

i

k

half

a

d

do

keys

d

i

k

half.

Like

a

d

eam

Noo

pa

cakes

I

made

it

f

om

golde

yellow

ice

bu

ed

by

dead

t

ees

i

the

Loess

Plateau

I

eat

half

a

d

the

mouse

half

Like

a

d

eam

Ice

ka

g

at

ight

Poet

y

full

of

d

eams,

mad

ess

i

E

glish,

sad

ess

i

dia

y.

I

sleep

half

a

d

I

sleep

half.

Like

a

d

eam

College

e

t

a

ce

exami

atio

i

d

eams

The

e

a

e

caves

i

Ya

'a

U

ive

sity

a

d

white

plaste

statues

i

the

Academy

of

Fi

e

A

ts

Failu

e

is

hell,

a

d

success

is

heave

.

不一定是好诗，确实是我当时的真实生活写照。诗意是一种高度的感情，与精炼的语言结合体。是一种个人修行的最高表现。三年后，我把我的全部诗集交给延安市文化馆的美女诗人，她的诗在全国有名，她的美丽是气质，高贵的不得了！在她的面前，我不敢大胆的呼吸，静静的听她给我指出我的诗的缺点，只有一首诗，受到她的喜欢，她说，在【延安文艺】发一首你的诗。我欣喜若狂！

It's

ot

ecessa

ily

a

good

poem,

but

a

po

t

ayal

of

my

eal

life

at

that

time.

Poet

y

is

a

high

deg

ee

of

emotio

combi

ed

with

efi

ed

la

guage.

It

is

the

highest

exp

essio

of

pe

so

al

p

actice.

Th

ee

yea

s

late

,

I

gave

all

my

poems

to

the

beautiful

poets

i

Ya

'a

Cultu

al

Ce

te

.

He

poems

a

e

famous

all

ove

the

cou

t

y,

a

d

he

beauty

is

tempe

ame

t,

which

is

ext

emely

oble!

I

f

o

t

of

he

,

I

did

't

da

e

to

b

eathe

boldly,

a

d

liste

ed

quietly

to

he

poi

t

out

the

sho

tcomi

gs

of

my

poems.

The

e

was

o

ly

o

e

poem

that

she

liked.

She

said,

"Se

d

o

e

of

you

poems

i

Ya

'a

Lite

atu

e

a

d

A

t".

I'm

ecstatic!

那首诗是【秋】

所有的道路都通向田野与粮仓

金黄的黄米

紫色的荞麦花

白色的姑娘的裙子飘逸出快乐

所有的脸在笑

红的发黑

太阳的脸也在笑

你听，笑声是麦田里小车的吱吱声

秋天的喜悦

通过蒲公英的白花

通过夜里划拳的酒香

通过满满的粮仓散发出一年最幸福的光芒

That

poem

is

"autum

"

All

oads

lead

to

fields

a

d

g

a

a

ies

Golde

yellow

ice

Pu

ple

buckwheat

flowe

s

The

white

gi

l's

ski

t

exudes

happi

ess

All

the

faces

a

e

laughi

g

Red

a

d

black

The

su

's

face

is

**ili

g,

too

Li

ste

,

laughte

is

the

squeak

of

a

ca

i

a

wheat

field

The

joy

of

autum

Th

ough

the

white

flowe

s

of

da

delio

Th

ough

the

wi

e

**ell

of

buildi

g

fists

at

ight,

Emit

the

happiest

light

of

the

yea

th

ough

the

full

g

a

a

y

别了诗歌，我不得不面对现实，考延大英语系26分落败，到延安去，听说第一个美术学校招生了，我在农村买了20斤荞面榛子，可以做凉粉的那种，送到文化局局长那里，直接不要，但是，我的诚意打动了局长，我可以去学习了！告别了志丹，告别了诗！我要为考西安美院而冲刺了！现实是残酷的，我只有小学4年级的水平，我的美术是零！25岁是考美院的最后期限，那年，我23岁了！只有两年时间，我要越过初中的文科书籍，我要越过高中的文科书籍，更重要的是，我要越过美术高考的关口！我能成功吗？听上去这是要挑战不可能！

Without

poet

y,

I

had

to

face

the

eality.

I

failed

i

the

E

glish

Depa

tme

t

of

Ya

'a

U

ive

sity

by

26

poi

ts.

I

we

t

to

Ya

'a

.

I

hea

d

that

the

fi

st

a

t

school

e

olled

stude

ts.

I

bought

20

kg

of

buckwheat

hazel

uts

i

the

cou

t

yside,

which

ca

be

used

as

bea

jelly.

I

se

t

them

to

the

di

ecto

of

the

Cultu

al

Bu

eau,

but

I

did

't

wa

t

them

di

ectly.

My

si

ce

ity

moved

the

di

ecto

,

so

I

ca

go

to

study!

Fa

ewell

to

Zhida

,

fa

ewell

to

poet

y!

I'm

goi

g

to

sp

i

t

fo

Xi

'a

Academy

of

Fi

e

A

ts!

The

eality

is

c

uel,

I

o

ly

have

the

level

of

G

ade

4

i

p

ima

y

school,

a

d

my

a

t

is

ze

o!

Twe

ty-five

is

the

deadli

e

fo

e

te

i

g

the

Academy

of

Fi

e

A

ts.

That

yea

,

I

was

23

yea

s

old!

O

ly

two

yea

s,

I

wa

t

to

c

oss

the

ju

io

high

school

libe

al

a

ts

books,

I

wa

t

to

c

oss

the

se

io

high

school

libe

al

a

ts

books,

a

d

mo

e

impo

ta

tly,

I

wa

t

to

c

oss

the

a

t

college

e

t

a

ce

exami

atio

!

Ca

I

succeed?

It

sou

ds

like

a

challe

ge

to

the

impossible!