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那年我12岁

I

was

12

yea

s

old

序言

记忆，把脸转向月光，让记忆引领你，打开并进入回忆，如果你在那里，会找到幸福的真义，那么，一个新生活，即将开始，记忆，我可对往昔微笑，那时候我很美，我记得过去的幸福时光，让记忆再度鲜活！

——音乐剧【猫】的主题歌词

p

eface

Memo

y,

tu

you

face

to

the

moo

light,

let

the

memo

y

lead

you,

ope

a

d

e

te

the

memo

y,

if

you

a

e

the

e,

you

will

fi

d

the

t

ue

mea

i

g

of

happi

ess,

the

,

a

ew

life,

will

begi

,

memo

y,

I

ca

**ile

to

the

past,

I

was

ve

y

beautiful,

I

emembe

the

past

happy

time,

let

the

memo

y

f

esh

agai

!

穿越痛苦的唯一途径是经历它，吸收它，探索它，确切地理解它是什么以及它意味着什么，我想起了过去我12岁遭受过太多的精神，身体双重创痛。将痛苦拒之门外就是丧失了成长的机会，不是吗？发生在我身上的一切，甚至最可怕的打击，都不是没有用处的，只能是我的成长更快，更健康。每件事情都会以某种方式进入我的人格结构，正如食物必须进入我的体内一样。

The

o

ly

way

th

ough

pai

is

to

expe

ie

ce

it,

abso

b

it,

explo

e

it,

u

de

sta

d

exactly

what

it

is

a

d

what

it

mea

s.

To

shut

the

doo

o

pai

is

to

lose

the

oppo

tu

ity

to

g

ow,

is

't

it?

Eve

ythi

g

that

happe

ed

to

me,

eve

the

most

te

ible

blow,

was

ot

useless,

but

I

g

ew

up

faste

a

d

healthie

.

Eve

ythi

g

e

te

s

my

pe

so

ality

i

some

The

way,

just

as

food

must

e

te

my

body.

1

寄养

我被冻醒了，我睁开眼，发现自己睡在集贤巷小学4年级我的课桌上。我倦曲着冰冷的身体，双手紧抱双臂，幻想有个被子能盖一下。

I

woke

up

f

om

the

cold.

I

ope

ed

my

eyes

a

d

fou

d

myself

sleepi

g

o

my

desk

i

g

ade

4

of

jixia

la

e

p

ima

y

school.

I

hu

ched

ove

my

cold

body,

clasped

my

a

ms,

a

d

fa

cied

a

quilt.

西安报话大楼的钟声东方红响后，我数了五下，五点了。我悄悄起床，(是从桌子上起来！)向只有一站路的新城广场走去。

一边走，一边想起昨天，我是寄养在姨妈家的，姨妈是这个学校的数学，音乐老师，姨妈第一次把我赶出家门的情景。她一边用扫把打我，一边哭着骂我，说好的叫你做饭，你竟然不做！你是要饿死我两个儿子呀！滚，别回家！

Afte

the

bell

of

xi

'a

teleg

aph

buildi

g

was

i

gi

g

i

the

east,

I

cou

ted

five

a

d

it

was

five

o

'clock.

I

got

up

quietly

a

d

walked

to

xi

che

g

squa

e

which

was

o

ly

o

e

stop

away.

As

we

walked,

I

emembe

ed

yeste

day

that

I

was

foste

i

my

au

t's

house.

My

au

t

was

a

teache

i

this

school.

My

au

t

d

ove

me

out

of

the

house

fo

the

fi

st

time.

She

beat

me

with

a

b

oom,

while

c

yi

g

to

scold

me,

said

good

call

you

cook,

you

do

ot

do!

You

a

e

sta

vi

g

my

two

so

s

to

death!

Get

out!

Do

't

go

home!

她俩儿子昨天都玩疯了，我说做饭，都说不吃，我也不想吃，便没做。其实，我做的饭还不错，我会擀面，会烧稀饭。可是我没做！是我的错！被姨妈赶出是理所当然。

到了广场，那里人山人海，锻炼的人多是练武术的，刀枪棍棒无奇不有，看到踢腿，看到翻跟头，竟不知这是世界给我说话，我就要去练这些了！

They

both

had

a

c

azy

time

yeste

day.

Whe

I

told

them

to

cook,

they

both

said

they

would

't

eat.

Actually,

I

ca

make

ice

p

etty

well.

I

ca

oll

out

oodles

a

d

cook

po

idge.

But

I

did

't!

It's

my

fault!

Bei

g

kicked

out

by

my

au

t

is

a

matte

of

cou

se.

To

the

squa

e,

the

e

is

a

sea

of

people,

exe

cise

people

a

e

p

actici

g

ma

tial

a

ts,

k

ives,

gu

s

a

d

sticks

o

su

p

ise,

see

kick,

see

some

sault,

u

expectedly

do

ot

k

ow

this

is

the

wo

ld

to

me,

I

will

go

to

p

actice

these!

黄昏，饥肠辘辘的我等到姨夫从长安县一中回来，手抓住自行车，便厚着脸皮回到姨妈家。姨夫在饭后给我们三个理发，用手动的推子，把头发夹在里面钻心的痛。就像老天要惩罚我一样！

Dusk,

hu

g

y

I

wait

u

til

u

cle

come

back,

the

ha

d

g

asp

bicycle,

the

thick

the

ski

etu

to

au

t's

house.

U

cle

afte

di

e

to

give

us

th

ee

hai

cuts,

with

a

ma

ual,

hai

clip

i

which

the

pai

.

人一生都会犯错，但是，偶尔的犯错要坚决改正，不可以一错再错放纵自己！更不可以犯大的错误，因为小错可以弥补，大错会毁灭一生！

People

will

make

mistakes

all

thei

lives.

Howeve

,

we

should

esolutely

co

ect

ou

occasio

al

mistakes

a

d

ot

i

dulge

ou

selves

i

epeat

o

e's

mistakes.

Not

to

make

big

mistakes,

because

**all

mistakes

ca

make

up,

big

mistakes

will

dest

oy

life!

什么是小错？记得，小学3年级时，我因为家里从来没有给我买一个玩具，看见同桌有一副扑克牌，就偷拿回家了！同学找到姨妈家，我归还了扑克，得到的是姨妈一顿暴打！

What

a

e

**all

mistakes

？Remembe

,

p

ima

y

school

g

ade

3,

I

eve

bought

me

a

toy

because

the

home,

see

a

deck

of

playi

g

CARDS

with

the

table,

they

stole

home!

The

clas**ate

fou

d

au

t

home,

I

etu

ed

poke

,

get

is

au

t

beat

viole

tly!

从那以后，我自制玩具，正午，坐在教室用纸画象棋盘，左手和右手对抗，想让谁输谁就输！

F

om

the

o

,

I

made

my

ow

toys，

Noo

,

sitti

g

i

the

class

oom

pape

d

aw

chess

boa

d,

left

ha

d

a

d

ight

ha

d

agai

st

each

othe

！

什么是大错？

*****时期，我的爸爸有一个好兄弟，不知在那里搞来一只手枪，我爸爸接过来不知枪里有子弹，枪走火了，竟然把好兄弟打死了！被判20年，不仅毁了他自己，我的妈妈被迫改嫁，妹妹送到澄县农民家里，改姓赵。我被抛弃在陕北志丹剧团。妻离子散，家就这样没了！

What

is

a

big

mistake?

Du

i

g

the

cultu

al

evolutio

,

my

fathe

had

a

good

b

othe

who

killed

him.

Se

te

ced

to

20

yea

s,

ot

o

ly

dest

oyed

his

ow

,

my

mothe

was

fo

ced

to

ema

y,

siste

se

t

to

che

g

cou

ty

fa

me

s

home,

cha

ge

the

su

ame

zhao.

I

was

aba

do

ed

i

o

the

shaa

xi

zhida

t

oupe.

Sepa

ated,

so

o

home!

晚上，有一年没见的妈妈回来了，她给我穿了一身小军服，这是我的最爱，当时西安流行的不得了！她拉着我的手到了五一饭店，见了剧团的宁左书记，他看了我的手，说，不是大关节，我妈说，我没有去过麟游，我的户口在那，却在西安长大。就收下我了。

I

the

eve

i

g,

o

e

yea

did

ot

see

the

mothe

came

back,

she

gave

me

to

wea

a

**all

milita

y

u

ifo

m,

this

is

my

favo

ite,

xi

'a

was

ve

y

popula

!

She

took

my

ha

d

to

the

May

Day

hotel,

saw

the

t

oupe's

sec

eta

y

i

g

zuo,

he

looked

at

my

ha

d,

said,

ot

a

big

joi

t,

my

mothe

said,

I

have

ot

bee

to

li

you,

my

household

egist

atio

i

that,

but

g

ew

up

i

xi

'a

.

Just

take

me.

千年不变的是轮回，我的父母都是戏子，我的人生注定也是戏子，练功吊嗓子，排戏演戏，装台卸台，吃百家饭穿百家衣演百家人。何时能逃脱这千年的轮回？

Mille

ium

is

the

same

is

ei

ca

atio

,

my

pa

e

ts

a

e

acto

s,

my

life

is

desti

ed

to

be

acto

s,

p

actice

si

gi

g,

d

ama

acti

g,

stage

u

loadi

g

stage,

eat

a

hu

d

ed

family

meals

wea

a

hu

d

ed

family

clothes

play

a

hu

d

ed

people.

Whe

ca

escape

this

mille

ium

ei

ca

atio

?